VICTORiOUS

It is not what I planned but everything turned out good after all. :)

I was planning to spend the Holy Week in a beach resort with Marlon either in San Juan, Batangas or somewhere in Zambales. I end up spending Maundy Thursday night to Good Friday in the afternoon in a beach resort in Mabini, Batangas with Marlon, my kids and my in-laws. It was a fun-filled day so I have no regrets. :)

I guess the “Me and You, Just as Two” post-anniversary celebration would have to wait when the budget and the location are solid.

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Just found out last Thursday shift that the vacation leave I have filed for April 21-24 has been approved now I’m having a dilemma on where to spend those 4 precious days.

My friends Frenchie and Maia have set a trend of spending their vacation leaves either abroad or out of town. Although I am not under any obligation of topping off their respective holidays, the girls inspire me to spend mine as fruitful as possible.

I was planning to spend the Holy Week at La Luz Beach resort but unfortunately they are already fully-booked. I tried several resorts within Laiya, but like La Luz they are all swamped on those dates. Darn it! I knew I should have planned ahead.

The first and last time I went to a beach resort was in 2008. It was in Bolinao, Pangasinan. I was with my office mates from Accenture for our Wave 17 outing. I was so mesmerized by the sunset at the beach that I vowed to myself that I should visit one beach resort every year. However, due to financial difficulties, I was not able to visit even one beach resort after 2008. :(

There is something about the beach that makes people free their mind of all the emotional baggage that they have. I want to experience that again.

I am hoping and keeping my fingers crossed that if I am not able to visit a beach resort this Holy Week, I will make sure to visit one on July 17.

It is true that we should not have any regrets but sometimes we still wonder about the road not taken.

I always wonder what would have happened if I never shifted to the BPO industry and just stayed in a job that I love but pays minimally.

I am having this episode now and every time I come near the 2 year mark in a call center company. You work hard, perform better than your peers and yet you feel empty, unappreciated and disposable.

I do my best to counter-attack it by motivating myself and yet no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, cruel people and certain events created by the same cruel people will always manage to kill your momentum by dampening your spirit.

“If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude.” -Maya Angelou

I don’t have a problem with this quote because it is half true. Why half? Sometimes you can change something you don’t like and when you can’t you can change your attitude but most of the time you can’t. You simply have to express how you feel either by crying and shouting and then move on.

I just HATE it when some people use this quote to preach to someone. It’s like saying to that person, “oh you’re in a difficult time in your life but if I’m in that position, I’ll stay cheerful and positive.” Easier said than done B*TCH. You should never say you understand what a person is going through unless you are really in that scenario. And believe me that person who is seemingly prim and proper, cheerful and perky, who constantly uses this quote to torment expressive people like me, when they encounter a very disappointing situation in their lives they crumble like a poorly constructed building under an intensity 2 earthquake. It’s true, I’ve seen it happen. :P

Therefore, it is okay to feel bad, throw curses at the sky (not God), strangle your pillow once in a while, after all we’re only human, capable of human emotions. :)

As for me, I have 3 thoughts to keep my spirits up. Top 3, if I didn’t venture into the call center industry I probably wouldn’t have bought myself nice things like a decent touch screen phone or a laptop. Top 2, I wouldn’t have met the great people that became my trusted friends now. Last reason not to regret the decision I made back in 2005, I did it for LOVE. I did it for my kids. I sacrificed doing what I love to give them a better life. I am no Mother Teresa but I know in the great book of motherhood, that is one noble thing to do for your kids.

I just have to hold on to these thoughts while I look for greener pastures…:)